lost

i know that I've used this title twice but i feel as lost as ever. here is what happened:

my former best-friend sent me a note today.... it said:

Dear Marian,
i don't want to be your friend any more including your camp partner.

i was very hurt. i felt left-out,hurt and unloved. i trusted her with everything, but now.... i just don't know.
i realized that life is a giant jigsaw puzzle, some pieces fit and others require a hammer to force in. when you die you will never have a complete jigsaw puzzle... some parts in life will forever be a mystery.

the final question is dedicated to the one who sent me the note... my frenemy.

how would you feel? being dumped by your only friend, and then go frolicking of with another friend and act like nothing happened. all that hurt, sadness the feeling that your life has ended. i wonder how you can live with the guilt, the feeling like you committed a crime, the hatred of me and people who know. if i did that... in fact i would NEVER do that. i know i can be mean, but this is beyond mean.. IT'S CRUEL!!

sick

when your friend is sick are you envious? jealous? anxious that you will catch the bug.
well seriously... don't. it is definitely an experience everyone would kill to miss, especially when you lose your lunch. yuck. i lost my breakfast twice this morning and i have to drink this thing with water, salt and lemon pulp. yuck x2.

so..... after what i have told you do you really still envy your friend. i wouldn't.

Suggestions

I'm sorry i haven't written much, i was a bit busy. And of course writers block picks now for a visit. i have literally nothing to write about.. my mind is BLANK. So i was wondering if you have any ideas, if you don't mind, could you comment on this post with your ideas. sorry for the trouble. Man, i hate writers block.