lost

i know that I've used this title twice but i feel as lost as ever. here is what happened:

my former best-friend sent me a note today.... it said:

Dear Marian,
i don't want to be your friend any more including your camp partner.

i was very hurt. i felt left-out,hurt and unloved. i trusted her with everything, but now.... i just don't know.
i realized that life is a giant jigsaw puzzle, some pieces fit and others require a hammer to force in. when you die you will never have a complete jigsaw puzzle... some parts in life will forever be a mystery.

the final question is dedicated to the one who sent me the note... my frenemy.

how would you feel? being dumped by your only friend, and then go frolicking of with another friend and act like nothing happened. all that hurt, sadness the feeling that your life has ended. i wonder how you can live with the guilt, the feeling like you committed a crime, the hatred of me and people who know. if i did that... in fact i would NEVER do that. i know i can be mean, but this is beyond mean.. IT'S CRUEL!!

sick

when your friend is sick are you envious? jealous? anxious that you will catch the bug.
well seriously... don't. it is definitely an experience everyone would kill to miss, especially when you lose your lunch. yuck. i lost my breakfast twice this morning and i have to drink this thing with water, salt and lemon pulp. yuck x2.

so..... after what i have told you do you really still envy your friend. i wouldn't.

Suggestions

I'm sorry i haven't written much, i was a bit busy. And of course writers block picks now for a visit. i have literally nothing to write about.. my mind is BLANK. So i was wondering if you have any ideas, if you don't mind, could you comment on this post with your ideas. sorry for the trouble. Man, i hate writers block.

Speech Festival

I signed up for the speech festival a few days ago. When i signed up there were three poems i had to choose from: The Yo Yo Man (which was real stupid), The Whistler (which was nice and Books (i got that). I haven't started practicing yet but i wish i would get in to the top three. this is my poem:

Books

What worlds of wonder are our books!
As one opens them and looks,
new ideas and people rise
in our fancies and our eyes.

The room we sit in melts away,
And we find ourselves at play
with someone who, before the end,
may become our chosen friend.

Or we sail along the page
to some other land or age.
Here's our body in the chair,
but our minds are over there.

Each book is a magic box
which with a touch a child unlocks.
In between their cvers
books hold all things for their lovers.

Eleonor Farjeon

English Class

Today in english we learned about the different genres of stories, then we were asked to make up three titles for: mystery, adventure and sience-fiction stories.I chose: Death By Words (mystery), Waking Up In Hades Realm (adventure) and When Planets Collide (sience- fiction). The hardest one to do was the sience-fiction title.

Unacomanied Minor

Sorry this entry is late...again. It was because i was in Cebu.

i went to Cebu as an unacomanied minor with My Brother. It was the coolest and i mean coolest thing ever! Here's what happened:

My Mum came with us to the bag checking area (with a lady from Cathay Pacific) and dropped us of there, then we went through immigration, finally we hopped on the flight heading towards Cebu.
30 minutes before we landed a flight attendent asked us to move into buiness class so we could be the first one's off! So we moved up and had a nice 30 minutes at buiness class.

Lost

Sorry for the delay on this entry.

Today i was going to a friends house and she said that her adress was: Block 60, 19/F. So My Mum dropped me off on the ground floor then i followed the address and couldn't find it, so i checked the stairs just incase and it said 19/F so i went back down to the ground floor and asked the guard, but he was no help what so ever because he was speaking cantonese and i don't speak cantonese. So once again i went back up to the 19/F (in tears) trying to find the house. Then after ten minutes i saw that someone was coming up in the lift, i really hoped that it would be someone that spoke english. Finally the lift opened and it was My Mum! Then she told me that she called My Friend and asked if i was there and she said no, so she came back to check on me. After My Mum expained I called My Friend after and her adress wasn't Block 60, 19/F but it was: Block 58, 19/F. If it wasn't obvious i was scared, VERY scared.

Writers Block

Sometime's writers or bloggers run out of things to say, no matter how hard they try. Unfortunatly i couldn't think about anything to write today so I decided on witing about.....nothing.

Ecomonic Crisis

A few days ago i had to abandon my pet on neopets because i couldn't afford keeping them fed. What i did is also happening to humans abandoning animals for the same reason i did. But I wonder why are humans adopting animals they can't keep fed? Why did they adopt them in the first place, because they're cute, fluffy? How would you feel if you were starving and you were abandoned, left to die?

How I Feel About My Dad

Today i got an e-mail from My Dad asking if i was looking forward to seeing him next week. I responded: i dunno.I love My Dad but the reason why i don't am not looking forward to going oversea's with him is because: Firstly, normally everytime I go oversea's with him he leaves me and my brother at the hotel alone. Secondly, he always does whatever his wife wants to do even though my opinion is way different. Thirdly, he normally chooses his own destenations for a long time, and goes to the place me and my brother wants to go for only a short while.

What My Mum Deserves

My mum is single, and today she asked me what i expected if she ought to get a boyfriend. I said:


handsome, likes kids, sporty, fun, makes A LOT of money, smart, can do my home work for me and is not british (british have fugly teeth), oh and is strong, creative, respects us, really loves you and doesn't smoke or drink.
all that.

and My mum responded:

that's what every girl wants.

(No wonder Mum is still single.)

Lying

Lying gets you nowhere.......except trouble.


Lying is nothing anyone can be proud of. The benefits of lying? NONE. I lied today and i thought for a while sooner or later someone will find out and you will be in more trouble then if you told the truth, and if you told the truth you wouldn't feel like you are commiting a crime. Lying is useless.

Why am i doing this.

Why am i doing a blog? Because i want to.